Caps Lock Cupid

THE WALLS OF MY SOLITARY CELL ARE BROKEN AND I AM IN LOVE. I AM IN LOVE AND I MEAN IT, I AM IN LOVE AND I FEEL IT AND I AM IN LOVE AND I KNOW IT. YOU HATE IT WHEN I SLEEP WITH SCARVES ON BECAUSE I MAY GET STRANGLED INTO THE OBLIVION OF DAYDREAMS ENUMERATED AND EPITAPHS REINSTATED. WE’RE VOWERS TO A PREDISPOSED DREAMLAND AND TOWERS TO OURSELVES. I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF A MONTH AND SEVEN DAYS AGO AND YOU WERE THERE, YOU WERE THERE EVEN THOUGH IT HURT AND I HURT AND YOU DID TOO AND WHEN YOUR MOM WANTED TO COME AROUND TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM YOU SAID NO BECAUSE ALL YOU WANTED FOR ME TO HAVE WAS A STOMACH VIRUS AND THAT’S ALL SHE THOUGHT THAT IT WAS. YOU FORGIVE THESE MISTAKES, THESE QUESTIONABLE NOTIONS SO EASILY THAT I CAN’T BE A BAD PERSON A BAD GIRLFRIEND A BAD ANYTHING I CAN’T BE BAD FOR YOU I CAN’T BE BAD FOR YOU I CAN’T BE BAD I CAN’T I CAN’T BE ANYTHING BUT LOVELY AND BEAUTIFUL WITH HALOS CIRCLING MY WRISTS LIKE HOSPITAL BANDS BECAUSE YOU DON’T DESERVE A TEXT SAYING GOODBYE AND A NOTE WRITTEN IN GREEN TO BE THAT LAST THING I EVER WRITE TO YOU I EVER SAY TO YOU I EVER THINK OF YOU, YOU ARE SO GOOD THAT SETTING MY LIFE IN STONE WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH AND YOU’D RATHER SEE ME DYING THAN IMAGINE IT HAPPENING AS I TAKE THESE WORDS AS THICK AS WATER AS WINE AS BLOOD TO WASH DOWN THE PILLS THAT DIDN’T WORK. YOU HATE WHEN PEOPLE GIVE YOU PRESENTS BUT HOW COULD I NOT WANT TO GIVE YOU MY HANDS WRAPPED IN A GREEN BOX (YOUR FAVORITE) BECAUSE THAT’S ALL I HAVE THAT’S ALL I’M GOOD FOR, I’M GOOD FOR THESE WORDS THESE ORCHESTRATED PHRASES AND NOTHING MORE, I AM GOOD FOR NOTHING NOT EVEN YOU NOT EVEN THE JOB I QUIT ON WEDNESDAY NOT EVEN ANYTHING NOT EVEN ANYTHING NOT EVEN. I REPEAT MYSELF SO OFTEN BECAUSE PEOPLE NEVER HEAR ME WELL ENOUGH EVEN THOUGH I SCREAM EVEN THOUGH I AM LOUD I AM SO LOUD PEOPLE TELL ME TO QUIET DOWN AND THEY TELL ME TO USE MY INSIDE VOICE BUT HOW CAN I FUCKING USE MY INSIDE VOICE WHEN ALL I CAN HEAR ARE THE RED VIBRATIONS OF YOUR BEATING HEART BEHIND MY EYES TELLING ME THAT THE SHAPES SHIFTING WHEN I CLOSE THEM ARE YOUR CHARISMATIC ENTITIES SCREAMING AT ME TO EQUIVOCATE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU