The Opposite of What is Familiar

 
 

I.
 
Give me a morning glassine
yellow after a storm, days humid
enough to make salt stick. Weather
 
only happens to other people. My need
is mostly to be internal (I have not needed
to be big). Call them odd
 
instruments, odd vascularities,
awed at our own little buildings. I can
make a place out of anything.
 
 
II.
 
There is a condition in which people
forget that their body belongs
to them. My body mostly feels
 
like yarn. If I were to cut off an arm
I would want it to be messy:
wrenched hard and gutted
 
unclean. I would want
to make sure it felt
like my own.
 
 
III.
 
Untoward interruption, a noise felt
more than heard. That late
shaking, moment
 
like a TV screen and all asleep,
dark from stress before the kill.
Define the uncanny as the face
 
of the man next door, middle
of the night: pinched hard
and searching.

 
 
 


 

Courtney Gustafson writes and teaches in Western Massachusetts. Her recent work has appeared in or is forthcoming in Rust + Moth, After the Pause, Eclectica Magazine, and elsewhere. You can follow her on Twitter at @cgust.

 

 
 
 
Cover Photo: “Resurrection” by Bob McNeil