mascara doesn’t drip down your cheeks / you can’t even have this / an accepted expression of sadness / tears won’t come / they take effort / breath / breath / breath / imagine a balloon filling up / and shrinking / inflating / deflating / like your lungs forget / repeat / think about getting up / dread the cold / the cold / the cold / the cold / the cold / the empty / the bathtub is slippery / start small and go from there / manage to speak / someone tattooed the word on the walls / of your throat / yes / what’s the other one / you start to wonder when the balloon goes pop / who will scrape up the pieces
