A cold, lonely planet
you are accelerating at a rate of leaving behind everything you ever cared about
you are hoping to achieve a terminal velocity
and then smash into something resembling a fierce, sad comet
and then the pieces of your heart will scatter
like tiny bits of ash or something
and you will spiral toward a cold, lonely planet
and if you are somehow still alive
you will hope that there is a creature resembling a wampa or a sasquatch
or even a giant plant that licks the faces off warm blooded organisms
and you hope it will find you in the dark and the snow
and end your life
but in reality
if the planet is not empty
the creature might be so lonely that it welcomes you
and it builds an igloo
and you stay there for a while
and then you feel ok for a period of time
and you get to know the creature
and you even feel empathy
then after six months or a year
you feel sick of being stuck on a cold, lonely planet
living in an igloo with a depressed sasquatch
and now you regret having crash landed
because this planet is devoid of interstellar technology
and it would take at least a few thousand years for its development
and now the stars are coming out
and you are standing on a giant frozen world
and you see something resembling the milky way
and you wish you were somewhere else maybe even home
considering philosophy at 2pm on thursday because i don’t have a real job
i am thinking about when i used to read nietzsche
i feel destroyed by will to power
everything is happening over again
i am watching tv again
i feel stronger emotional connections to tv characters than to people in my life
schopenhauer would go out of his way to annihilate kittens and most humans
because existence is suffering and the kindest gesture is to relieve someone of suffering
schopenhauer would murder an entire town of elderly people just to promote his philosophy
if everything is nothing then nothing is happening all the time so why do i feel so shitty doing nothing or anything really
later i was walking around staring at trees trying to feel pensive
i pissed in the same river twice
at the end of life you probably get to see everything shitty that you didn’t realize you did
everything is happening over again
every world religion and worldview in general accepts the fact that the world is terrible and full of suffering they all just prescribe different methods for ignoring the fact that the world is terrible and full of suffering so basically they are techniques for not thinking about the world
most happy people don’t read philosophy
to figure out what is happening outside i watch tv
there are leaves falling in front of my window