1. paper bag for dead dog
2. drunk man for dead man
3. kind teacherly gentleman for man who wants to fuck me
4. man who wants to fuck me for kind teacherly gentleman
5. fear that I’m not capable of love for love
6. sex in which he doesn’t hit me for love
7. nickel for dime
8. dime for nickel
9. sex in which he does hit me for love
10. lovelessly losing my virginity for therapeutically overcoming childhood terror
11. dreamt conversations for real conversations
12. lost earring for gargantuan Brooklyn water bug
13. just say yes for love