I tell my wife that I want to go to outer space before I die. “You’re crazy,” was all she said. Fair enough but then again she thinks everyone is crazy.

 

They say the rich will be able to go soon, sipping expensive drinks, weightless, pointing and laughing at the mortals stuck down on “that ridiculously pedestrian planet.”

 

Will us mortals ever get to go? I don’t know. But if I ever get the chance it’ll be see you later alligator!

 

Things I might find in space: a closer view of the moon, space junk, aliens, a planet not quite as blue as the one I’ve seen in dreams. Something equal to a godliness.

 

I want to hear the silence of space. I wonder what it sounds like.

 

Obviously, there are pros and cons to anything and certainly, there are for going into space.

 

Cons:

  1. Possibility of fiery death (quick death)
  2. Possibility of botched water landing (slow death)
  3. That up there I will feel the pull of things much farther away
  4. That I will be able to do nothing to appease that pull

 

Pros:

  1. A selfie where it looks like I’m holding the Earth in the palm of my hand

 

Here is a quote by some famous astronaut whose name I can’t remember that helps me recall why I want to go to space:

 

                   After space, there is no turning back. There is no old you anymore.

                   Only the you that has looked the secrets of the universe in the eye

                   and lived to tell about it.

 

But is this what I’m after? The secrets of the universe? Isn’t that what we’re all after? The hard questions like why are we even here? Is existence meaningless? If heaven is real why would would anyone hide it? And just what are gluons exactly?

 

Maybe there will he hurricane brewing while I’m up there.

Maybe I’ll look down and see it spinning, skirling towards something that doesn’t want it coming.

Maybe they give the hurricane my wife’s name.

Maybe I’ll wave.

Maybe I’ll hope it waves back but of course I won’t expect it